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一个台湾女孩儿如是说

                                      

这个是财神宝库台湾问题三部曲中的最后一部. 和一个台湾女孩的谈话改变了我一直以来对台湾的看法, 我觉得我在同情她, 我觉得我们应该体谅她们...

 "Taiwanese rather die to go back" 一个台湾女孩儿如是说 简单介绍: 在下财神宝库，一个普通的留学加国的大陆留学生．而她，是我在一个留学生论坛认识的一个普通的台湾女孩儿，在大学的专业是历史．

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"Taiwanese people rather die than to go back．．． "

这句话在她和我的交谈中重复了很多次．．．

财神宝库： 这篇文章写于2004年3月初, 恰好是320公投的前夕. 当然, 这仅仅是在MSN上的一次简短的聊天记录， 它告诉我们一个真正的台湾女孩子是怎么想的. 同时所代表的台湾年轻一代又是怎么想的．．．为什么海峡两岸的人会有那么大的隔阂？也许在看过这篇文章后, 你会体会到点什么吧．．．


I still believe I am Taiwanese
but I feel you guys don't understand how Taiwanese people feel
never stand on our position and think for us
I guess you guys never will
think I know enough of what you guys want to say
many Chinese always wants to discuss this with me
but I think its something I don't like to discuss
know very well of what you guys feel already
but many of you guys are too self centred and cannot think for others
understand how terrified when you know that a missile bomb was shoot close to your home
know that someone always threaten your life
then you will understand why many Taiwanese people rather die than to go back
because I hate someone threatens me everyday then tell us they treat us like brothers
what a joke

then tell you oh they don't want to shoot you
but they want you to give up what you believe in and what you lived for
they want you to become who they are rather who you want to be
Taiwanese are happy without China
and we believe in democratic

Look at how HK is right now, that is not what we want to be
Look at how China treats Falungong
Look at how China doesn't allow speech freedom
Look at how China think they can rule our life
Look at how many bombs they are aiming at us

Not that we don't think we are Chinese, but we cannot let go who we believe we are
Its been over 50 years that we aren't part of China
and internationally we are a country
a country that is very different than China
Even though many Taiwanese may have to die for the cause
but it will be worth it

If there is a war, I will go back and serve Taiwan
Try to find out what I can help
just imagine someone holds a gun at you everyday and after you tell me you don't care then you come back to convince me
or else don't come to me and tell me to unite with China
Its just a drunken husband always hits his wife and after he wake up he tells the wife he loves her
but after he is drank again and he hits her again
tell me that wife will want to keep the marriage
no one will want to stay in that marriage bah

not that Taiwanese hates Chinese
but its the Chinese government we don't like
they are communist and they will always be
if they are democratic, then I guess Taiwan would return bah

China has to treat Taiwanese fair before they want us to return, but they never will
In Taiwan no one knows what happens tomorrow
maybe there is war anytime
its true that Taiwan doesn't have the power to defend itself
but I think I rather die than to go back to China
I guess its the ideology different bah

letting me know that Taiwan cannot defend itself is something we know long time ago
nothing new at all
then why don't they just attack?
die now maybe can solve the problem and lead to a better future for my children
at least my children won't have to fear of war
coz war is over and problem is solved
rather than haunted for more than 50 years

if you live in Taiwan for your life, then you will understand why I am so pessimistic
its better to get it over with
just like you are going to have an exam
but keep postponing it
but if you don't have the exam you can't graduate from college
then why don't you just study hard and pass the exam anyways
you can't sleep well anyways
being haunted everyday
thinking your exam is tomorrow, but its 50 years later

I am not mad at the reaction of people from mainland
I know you guys will have that kind of reaction anywaysJust that I hate when people say very foolish comments and degrading Taiwanese
they don't understand us then don't tell us what to do

I know China history, HK history, Singapore history and East Asian history as a whole
I read newspaper everyday
I know what's going on
so don't tell me that Chinese government is friendly
don't tell me that we are brothers or anything
I read all of those and I know it clear
but those articles ignore the fact of how Taiwanese people feel
very bias


以上就是她所说的原话, 由于我在中间几乎没有打断过她, 所以看上去是很连贯的. 说实话, 我之所以没有打断她, 是因为这是我第一次真真正正和一个台湾人交流这个敏感至极的话题, 而她的几句话给我的震撼是如此之大！以至于话在嘴边却说不出，我并不想反驳她．．．一点也不想．反倒，我觉得我们应该好好的想一想了．．．甚至觉得，自己以前是多么的无知．．．

是啊，在我们驰骋各大论坛口若悬河地大谈特谈台湾问题，武力攻台，一国两制的时候，我们中间的谁能站在台湾人的角度来看这个问题？谁又能代表台湾人的想法了解台湾人的想法呢？引用这个小姑娘的一句话＂they don't understand us then don't tell us what to do＂　难道不是吗？！

我不想在这个帖子里看到有人逐一反驳她的话，也不想看到任何大道理，更不希望有人攻击她或者我个人，我写这个帖子的目的很简单，就是要更多的来自中国大陆的朋友们了解一下海峡另一边的声音，站在他们的角度仔细的想一想．．．

我曾说过，两岸的人民缺少太多太多的沟通了．在这么多隔阂下，也难怪那么多人包括我都希望靠一场轰轰烈烈的战争结束一切．可这个世界，真的需要战争么？

 

 

附加以上英文对话的完整翻译:

我一直认为我是台湾人

 

但是我觉得你们不明白台湾人是怎么想的

 

永远不会站在我们的角度来看我们

 

我想你们也永远不会

 

觉得我自己知道你们会怎么说

 

很多中国人都想和我谈论这个话题

 

但我觉得这是一件我自己也不想讨论的事

 

已经知道太多你们对我们的看法了

 

但你们中的很多人太主观, 从来不为别人着想

 

如果有一颗导弹落在你们家的附近, 你能感受这有多恐怖吗?

如果有一些人一直在威胁着你们的生命

 

然后你就会明白为什么那么多台湾人宁愿牺牲生命也不愿意回归

 

因为我不喜欢有些人天天在威胁着我们却告诉我们他们对待我们像兄弟姐妹一样

 

这是一个多么大的笑话?!

然后又告诉我们他们不愿意开枪打我们

 

但是他们想让我们放弃我们的信仰和生活方式

 

他们想把我们变得和他们一样而并不在乎我们想成为什么

 

如果没有中国, 台湾会很幸福的

 

而且我们相信民主

看看现在的香港, 那并非我们所期望的将来

 

看看中国是怎么对待XXX的

 

看看中国是怎么限制言论自由的

 

看看中国是想怎么样控制我们的生活的

 

看看中国有多少颗导弹正在瞄准我们

我们并不是觉得我们不是中国人, 但我们不想改变我们信念中的自己

 

台湾已经有超过五十年不被中国统治了

 

而在国际上, 我们是一个国家

 

即使为了某个原因很多台湾人将失去他们的生命

 

但那将是值得的

如果真的发生战争, 我将会回去为台湾服务

 

试着看看我能帮上什么忙

 

想象一下有个人每天拿着把枪指着你, 可当你跟他说你不在乎之后, 他又回来试着说服你, 或者根本就不跟你说, 就是让你去和他联合

 

这就像一个酗酒成性的丈夫总是殴打他的老婆, 可当他清醒了之后又跟他老婆说他爱她

 

可当他再一次喝醉了酒, 就又殴打他的老婆

 

你觉得他老婆还愿意和他维持这段婚姻吗?

我看没人愿意吧...

并不是台湾人恨中国人

但是我们不喜欢中国政府

 

中国是共产党执政的, 而且永远不会改变

 

如果中国是个民主的国家, 我想台湾也许会愿意回吧

中国政府如果想让台湾回归, 就必须平等的对待台湾, 可这似乎永远不可能

 

在台湾, 没有人知道明天会发生什么事

 

也许任何时候都有可能爆发战争

 

台湾的的确确连保护自己的能力都没有

 

但我还是觉得宁愿牺牲生命也不要回归中国

 

我想这是观念上的不同吧

我们很早以前就知道台湾是没有足够的力量来保护自己的

 

没什么新意

 

为什么他们不马上来进攻

 

现在死至少可以解决这个问题, 并且为我们的孩子创造一个美好的将来

 

至少孩子们不用再惧怕战争了

 

因为战争结束了,问题解决了

 

这比在枪口下活了五十年要好多了

如果你也是在台湾出生台湾长大, 那你就会明白为什么我是这么悲观

 

解决比不解决要好太多了

 

就像是你要参加一个考试

 

但你却一直延迟参加考试的时间

 

为什么你不努力学习并且无论如何试着考完这个试呢

 

至少你可以睡得舒坦些

 

你觉得这场考试明天就要来临, 可你却足足等了五十年

我并不对你们大陆人的反应表示气愤

 

我知道你们无论如何都会有那样的反应

 

只不过我不喜欢经常有人恶语中伤台湾人

 

如果他们不了解我们, 那就别告诉我们应该做什么

我学过中国历史, 香港历史, 新加坡历史, 乃至整个东亚历史

 

我每天都读报纸

 

我知道每天在发生着什么

 

所以别跟我说中国政府对我们是友好的

 

我读过很多东西, 知道的再清楚不过了

 

但太多的文章忽视了台湾人民的想法

而且很片面

 

 

 

 

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